Today I’m so grateful for a spontaneous act of kindness from not one but two women. The first one is pictured above, my daughter’s gymnastic’s instructor. I love this woman dressed in teal. I haven’t seen her since last spring and instead of asking me ridiculous questions, she simply came up to me tonight at observation and said that she feels like she she needs to give me a hug. Then, she asked how I have been. I said honestly not good and she just simply said that Kelly told her and she is so sorry. So grateful for her love and understanding.
The second blessing I had was earlier today at my yearly gynecologist appointment. Hard to find blessings there, but ones snuck in. The nurse told me that the doctor had a student working with her today and asked if it was okay if the student did my exam with guidance from my doctor. I didn’t really mind, so I agreed. In walks a friend of mine whom I had lost contact with over the years. I didn’t really know how I felt about the situation at that point, but it ended up being less awkward than I had initially thought it would have been. Through the background questions, she obviously found out about all of my current health struggles. After the exam, she came up and hugged me and told me that she would be praying for me. I almost broke down in tears.
God works in mysterious ways indeed.
Nothing oh nothing can get my emotions rolling than the image of my Lord on the cross. I feel every emotion all at once! It is amazing!
I took this picture in Indian River, Michigan at the Cross in the Woods. It has been one of my favorite places to go since childhood and in the past 10 years has new meaning to me.
It means the promise of a new life. Hope for a better tomorrow. I feel peace, love, gratefulness, sadness, and joy all together at the foot of the cross. I know what I must do and my vision is clear. Ending love is given without a cost to me a siner. How amazing is Grace?????
Christmas morning 1992
I never knew that his gift was to be the gift that would not only save my life one day, but change it completely and become my most valued possession on this earth.
My bible is written in, highlighted, dog eared, has bobby pins and napkins for book marks, and contains the words that my soul survives on.
It wasn’t always this way. My bible was tucked away in a box and forgotten for many years. I may have been given it way back in 1992, but it didn’t become my life blood until the worst night of my life in 2007.
I had nothing to love for anymore. It was time to move on from this world. I couldn’t stand the pain anymore. No one understood me or cared enough to try. Kneeling on my bedroom floor, I was filled with feeling of complete hopelessness. These thoughts and more raced through my head as the hot tears rolled down my cheeks, the cold barrel of the gun pressed tight against my temple.
Out of nowhere, a voice! The most calming voice I’ve ever heard. “I love you.” Somehow I knew it was Jesus, even though I hadn’t thought about him in years. My mind shifted to the Bible. I remembered that it was in a box in the back of my closet.
I had an overwhelming urge to find it. I dug and dug and finally found my old Bible. I randomly opened it up and read “When you go through deep waters I will be with you” Isaiah 43:2. I was instantly filled with a peace that I cannot explain. I knew I was not alone.
I’ve spent the past 10 years not only studying the words that are printed in this book, but getting to know it’s author and in turn know myself on a deeper level.
That is what I call it when the sun is beaming down from the clouds. I don’t know where I heard this term or when, but every time I see this act of nature it makes me think that Jesus is right there with me. I need these constant reminders.
What does this have to do with Shelter you are probably wondering right now? Jesus has proven to be my greatest shelter from the storm. I have been through life’s tornados and hurricanes and survived.
My current struggle must draw me closer to Him to provide the shelter I need. I just need to let Him. Let go of my pride.